Lost my way

I haven't been able to get to the allotment for ages due to work commitments and now I feel I've given up. I'm not sure why I've lost my way, I am a little depressed with life my biological mother decided to contact me through a social media platform. I have lived in care all my life and probably thought I'd delt with the demons inside.  Perhaps not, but I really enjoy growing and gardening and need to find my gardening mojo. The garden is also in need of attention at thats where I live.
Has anyone else had this before and how did you get back on track?
HELP

Potting on compost shortage

Managed to get to Knights garden centre for some John innes number 2 to pot on the chillies,  but they hadn't ordered any in. So ended up with some Grow your own  vegetable and fruit enriched compost. 2 bags for a tenner 50ltr each.
Got a couple of seed tray lids (unheated propagators)

I added a load of W clips to the polycarbonate greenhouse sheets to stop the leaking roof due to the wind. Also WD40 on the louvre window, but didn't get to fit the opener. Another day...