Day 5

I have just found this draft from 2018 that documents my task of giving up alcohol. It's now 2 years five months later and I have been alcohol free for 2 years. I have a beer on a rare occasion and have had a few glasses of champagne as the new girlfriend likes the finer things in life. If any of you have a drink dependency please find it in your hearts to listen to your body's and minds. Take a few days, weeks off. Then perhaps you can make a great leap of faith and give up totally.  It's the best feeling and achievement in the world. At least one of, to an alcohol dependent. Please keep safe during these testing times #lockdown #covid-19 

As the title says it's day 4, this is day 4 alcohol free. I've had to knock it on the head as a chest infection has fucked me and I'm on antibiotics and steroids for 5 days. I can't sleep, I feel like I've got a cold a bunged up head, I'm hot n cold and can't think straight. This could be the chest infection fallout but i just read up about the affect of giving up alcohol. I gave up for 3 weeks just before Christmas 2016 but had a beer Christmas Eve following work and I believe I've drunk everyday since then. It's April 24th... Wow I'd like to be able to be free of alcohol this time forever, for my daughter's sake, my son's sake and my own sake. Fuck I've wasted so much for beer and being drunk. All of my problems in life have been the result of drink or drugs as a result of drink.