Lost my way

I haven't been able to get to the allotment for ages due to work commitments and now I feel I've given up. I'm not sure why I've lost my way, I am a little depressed with life my biological mother decided to contact me through a social media platform. I have lived in care all my life and probably thought I'd delt with the demons inside.  Perhaps not, but I really enjoy growing and gardening and need to find my gardening mojo. The garden is also in need of attention at thats where I live.
Has anyone else had this before and how did you get back on track?
HELP